Can I be truthful? Sometimes is it hard to “put it in God’s hands” and leave it there. Sometimes it is hard to see the forest through the trees. Sometimes it is hard to believe that “once you stop chasing the wrong things the right ones will catch you.” Sometimes life doesn’t turn out the way we thought and frankly it sucks.
It has been a crazy two weeks, actually make that a crazy year. I think I mentioned last year we were going to downsize, so we found a house in another state, put our house up for sale and thought all would work out. Unfortunately the deal on our house fell through at the last minute, and then the owners of the house we wanted decided not to sell after all. But they said they might sell in a year or two. So we took our house off the market and settled back in, I use that term loosely because we never really unpacked everything and it took 6 months to get everything out of the storage unit and back to the house.
I am/was convinced this house was for me so almost weekly I would go online and see if it was for sale and 2 weeks ago (the day I looked) it went up for sale. So we called our realtor and put our house up for sale(this is where not unpacking everything came in handy) and we waited because our realtor told us that the people were not going to be open to a contingent offer so soon after putting their house on the market. My husband said, “put it in God’s hands” if it is meant to be, it will be.”
I really didn’t feel good about that but I am not an expert, we did keep tabs and found out someone else was interested so we contacted our lender to make alternate arrangements, then he went on holiday and could not be reached for 4 days and I knew then, I could feel it in my bones that we had just missed our chance. Sunday I went on line and “my house” has a pending offer. To say I am sad would be an understatement. I have been dreaming and planning this house in my mind for a year, I knew where each piece of furniture was going to go, what color the walls were going to be and I could see myself spending the rest of my life in that house.
I am blessed because I have a house I know that, and I am grateful for it, but sometimes it is ok to be disappointed and sad when your dreams don’t turn out the way you thought they would.
I hope that you have a good day. Stay warm.